showing no remorse...
for the sins i'm not aware i've committed
inflicted pain upon the innocents
who wont understand why they've been targeted

i am always being questioned
but i never air my response
coz the answers always elude me
whenever i'm forlorn

showing no remorse...
but maybe a lil
...................................................
my expression might appear tantamount to a feeling of despair or depression
but nah don be too naive haha
my friends besides my classmates nowadays commented on how bored my face looked
or how black or how gloomy, horrible, mournful, ominous, oppressive, sad, sinister i looked
is that really true???
have i lost my sunny smiley personality?
hoho thats sad
lets hope not

decided not to go to 2 events today
pjc's cyclethon gig and gpa
well they must be disappointed
but nah i cant waste any more time
got to set my priorities rite
sorry guys...

friday:
ran 2 rounds then played floorball again for pe
my team won by the score of 17-0
2 pts awarded if scored by a guy and 5 pts awarded if scored by a girl
i found the net 4 times haha
then econs lesson...
one thing i cant stand is emotional female teachers
it gets on my nerves sometimes
skip to afternoon
had a stupid econs briefing which was useless
then went for my cca
nothing interesting for the session just plain physical training
warm-up 3 laps
did circuit training 6 laps plus push-ups and crunches and jumping jacks
then running up and down staircases which amounted to another 1 round around the track
then 3 sets of 6 pull-ups
the session ended after another 1 round of cooling down jog
but i stayed on to do another 3 rounds around the track with jj
my t-shirt was soaking wet by then but lucky me,
i had left my jersey in the odac room the other day and could wear it home
in total 15 rounds around the track in one day 15 x 0.4km=6km
the outcome...exhaustion and an aching body
stupid why do i do such things hahaha

Aftermath of National Vertical Marathon: i'm sick of climbing stairs
i'm having nightmares of climbing one flight of steps to another
lol the effects are indeed disastrous haha
but thers two sides to a coin
i don complain about how high up the level my classroom is (80 storeys is indeed HIGH)
and my legs feel so light now when going up the stairs haha

ok i know i shoudnt complain about how ugly the odac jersey is
but really... lime greeeen is so greeeeen
the design of the jersey is alrite
but the colour...
striking, luminous and greeeeen
u can spot me a mile away if u saw me in one
but then its not that bad...

a most happening weekend
the best monent must be the one where i climbed up 51 flight of stairs
of temasek tower for the national vertical marathon
51 storeys of temasek tower=80 storeys of a hdb flat
just imagine...
i participated in the inter-jc team event
the rest of my gp members were shamus, serena,rebecca,yao long
they took the average timing of 5 of us
looking back i still cant believe that i completed the marathon
i, yao long and shamus sprinted all the way to the 20th storey climbing 2 steps
at a time, then we stopped and took a drink
from the 20th storey onwards fatigue sets in and u cant imagine how heavy
our feet were
we should not have started so fast...
furthermore we were mentally drained too and the sight of seeing one flight
of stairs after the other seems to frighten us
from the 20+ storey onwards i was climbing alone already
yao long had gone ahead and shamus was behind
from then on i had to suffer alone
i pulled myself up the steps using the railings
and pushed myself to the limit
i wasnt going to quit...never
i pushed on harder for the last few storeys
it was such a relief that i managed to cross the finishing line in one piece
haha but what followed after that wasnt so pretty
i vomitted right after i received my number chip
and the st john people had to help me walk over to the medic area
on the roof of the building
my head was spinning and feeling real nauseus
but still i was so happy that i completed my first marathon
sure i will try and compete in other marathons
coz i love to push myself to the limit
the vomitting was evidence of my poor fitness and stamina
i didnt prepare enough for the marathon
after a few minutes of sitting at the medic area i was alrite to walk off
i got to enjoy the great view from atop the temasek tower
when all my team mates crossed the finishing line we didnt get to talk
we were out of breath and exhausted we went down the tower using the lift(thank goodness)
when the results were out, the 4 pjc teams that participated didnt win anything
but still it will be an experience that will never be forgotten

ok i am at home right now...
but i'll go to school later
after i get my mc
haha understandable rite was too damn tired

changed my template
its a nuke bomb pic
love it
reminds us of the danger of these objects
and an inevitable nuclear war that seems
to be looming ahead
not convinced?
believe what u want
coz the war just started

played floorball for pe
and the skills are still there(ahem self-praising)haha
and enjoyable game despite getting whacked by sticks
scored 2 goals and assisted in 2 others ensuring 2 perfect wins
brought back memories of playing floorball in sec skool...

its been a hot week
literally...
temperatures soaring above average
plus the dimunitive possibility of rain
wth gotta bear with it

wednesday:
had to miss out the earlier part of my cca coz
of the "learning journey" trip to suntec city
well da truth is we din learn anything
it was a complete waste of time
maybe except on the way there where my classmates and i
played card games on the bus and doing forfeits haha
when we arrived at suntec, we only toured the exhibition
for a while and watched a pathetic skit and performance
oh yar there was the guy from sg idol who was kicked out
for his atrocious rendition of maroon 5's this love (cant remember his name, he's useless anw)
and again he couldnt sing but then i believed he was lip synching
we then toured the mall and walked aimlessly(the teachers also gave up on keeping us on the exhibition site) where in the end my class went to kopitiam to eat
after that we went back to school

today
a boring day which was highlighted when
my playing cards were confiscated AGAIN
yes last year the same thing happened
but it wasnt my fault this time
i lent it to my classmates during break inside the classroom while
i was doing my hw when the ms tan(in charge of discipline) came barging in the class
she not only confiscated the cards but took down the names of those who were playing
so sadistic...

da longest day of da week
my timetable starts at 8am and ends at 7pm
11 hours in school???!!!! wtf
mentally drained rite now so i'm chillin for da time being

me a nominee for pre-u seminar, u gotta be kiddin
cant believe my teacher made me one of da nominees
but its only nomination, by the time they see my results...
well hope i get to go

thts all...

valentines day

the day started well
happy happy happy
overjoyed
shant spare u guys the details
coz my head is throbbin

the day ended badly
with a diagnosis of migraine
but sure i am a happy today

head spins

ok i juz came back from johor last nite
and i skipped school today
no it was not on purpose
i planned on going to school but by the time i woke up
it was 645.
wats the point of coming late and tarnishing my
already bad record of latecomings
so i made the painful decision of not going
painful because i foregone my favourite lesson of all---pe
hahaha

lots of hw still not done
gotta make my move
have to sweat it out for the vertical marathon
but one thing still reigns me

laziness...


no one can help unless i help myself

saturday:
morning met up with gabriel to send the vertical marathon forms to NTU src
yeah odac is sending teams of 5 to climb up 50+ storeys of temasek tower
well that would explain why i spend more time after school doing pt
clocking laps and rounding the canal to prepare for the event
we're trying to avoid a last place finish haha

then at night my aunt and uncle brought my siblings and i to chevrons to bowl
it was certainly an unexpected outing
it has been a long time since i bowled and was a bit rusty
whenever i go to chevrons i will always be reminded of the day
when i lost to one girl way back then last year durin first 3 months
haha don want to say who... so malu
in fact she beat everyone who bowled that day haha
ok ok i suck in bowling

sunday:
chill study and slack

monday:
we were told that the next day was a holiday
and that set us off in holiday mood
in the afternoon we had a pt session to train us up for the vertical marathon
ok it didnt actually go according to plan
a lot of people didnt turn up and some pang seh juz to do other stuff
ran the canal then rest then played basketball(even though it was not on the agenda)
ran up the stairs a few times with weights on our legs
and did laps of the track with weights too
returned home damn tired

slack day

had pe but never even get to play a full game
of bball match
nvm next week we'll play more matches and thrash them all

in the afternoon si qian came to pjc
haha shes still the same old person
typical potato
she even crashed to my cca with the help of rebecca, serena and me

odac went to bt timah for a hike
supposed to make them walk all the way to bt timah
but due to time constrain, we took 190 and stopped somewhere b4 bke
hike thru the forest all the way to bt timah visitor centre
the bunch of j1 lot are so damn on
they will do anything we tell them to
had fun interacting with them too
didnt know that the hike would be so long as i recce the trail
by cycling thru the path

thts all

becoming disillusioned
who the hell i really am
i cant tell
i've got a good guy and also a bad guy in me
a split persona
an alter ego
but at least i can keep my ego in check
a man with an ego to boast is just another jerk or redneck on the street
so really who am i
most people see the good side
coz maybe i just please everyone
rarely have i ever anger any1
even if i do i wont realise it till i hear it from the horses' mouth
i am neither the hyper enthu nor the hard core slacker
i am always the middle guy
is that who i really am...i guess so coz it all adds up
............................................................................................soul searchin

cca yday was er unexpected
ran to cck park did some pt, played games
meditate at the park then ran back to skool
the games part ar... donno wat to say(lips are sealed)

tmr for cca we're bringin da kids(j1 odacians) to bt timah for a hike
interesting u say?
haha yeah
considering that i am co-in charge
its not a really far hike but i am afraid of the unpredictable weather
its been cloudy and rains without warning
haha but i would love to see them get wet and all muddy in bt timah
and see who would still want to come for da next odac session
there will be another hiking trip to mandai next and mind u it will
damn far>they will be walking thru the forest till they reach mandai zoo
seriously no kiddin
and we're not goin to climb up the hill
only around it thru the mountain biking trails that i take
yeah i still do mountainbike there now that i have friends who are
just as crazy to go down steep downhill slopes in bt timah and mandai

difficult to find people taking up this sport coz mainly its expensive
and secondly u need guts when goin down the steep downhills
and that requires full concentrarion and no hesitation
thats why thers quite a number who join on the first time
but then after that don want to continue to cycle
they will say we're bunch of crazy people risking life and limb
in the name of sport
duh we are crazy and we love da adrenaline rush

crazy... lalallalalalalalalalalala

burned away my weekend
literally.
the time i had to study simply disintegrated
but all the while i was not awake while it happened
wtf
i'm not getting things done
on time
tutors get all worked up by our behaviour
nothin is goin on well
the evidence of conflict is there
but ...

all f**ked up
all messed up
all cocked up
.........................................................................................
these few days are the worse days in this new year

i freakin lost my hp yday
it was my fault
but when its fated, wat can u do?
damn
now i've lost all my contact nos
i din back up most of them
shit...
all those girls phone nos hahhahahaha(juz jokin)
ok ok i've terminated the no. just in case some wacko go and
f**k up my bill
my new sim card will only be activated tmr
damn that phone was probably the last batch of non colour lcd phone(2100)
damn it
now i have to use an old hp that is so damn lagg
haiz wat to do

ok for all those who know me, msg me and say whos msging so i can save ur nos.
ok thanx

MDJ
First April Eighty Seven
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