Saturday, February 28, 2004, 11:12 am
splat...
flat in my face,
the cold mud landed.
the humiliation , the disgrace...
i can feel the cold hard stares piercing my already burnt skin
what do they want from me?
have i not suffered enough in the long trenches in battle
why do i have to slump deeper in the endless pit of doom ?
hey!
its not them, its just me!
I can never feel satisfied from what i have done
its been like this...
i am ungrateful, i know
i should learn to be thankful of the things i receive
i should be happy i lasted through the war n survived with just bruises n scratches
the war is over !
i am never on the winning side or so it seems
i should learn from this war
n should not let history repeat itself...
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So fast ...
too fast...
thats how time goes
I have already received my O level results !
i am happy n should be grateful
but 1 subject really shocked me!
English : C6
Combined Humanities: A1 (unexpected)
Additional Mathematics : B4
Mathematics : A2
Chemistry: B3
Physics : B3
Malay : A1 (unexpected)
L1R5: 16
L1R4: 13
yah u should know which subject shocked me!!!
English of course!!!!
my teachers were shocked too
i usually score at least a B3 in english!
i m so pissed
but for the rest of my subjects i was happy
i did not expect to get 3 distinctions
haha so happy that i get A1 for malay
retaking the paper pays off after all
oh yah my combined humans was a shocker!
i got an A1!!!!! i never get near an A while doing all those papers in skool
haha i guess hardwork really pays off
now i have to decide where to go next
i wanna stay in pjc ...
but...
ok lets see how the rest of my clique in pjc did
the cleverest is
Candy 10 pts
Si Qian 11 pts
Joshua 12 pts
Shafizah 14 pts
Kar Wai 16 pts
wah lau they all are "SO CLEVER"
did better than me man
never mind...
i will strive for better results in A level i hope
thats all
Tuesday, February 24, 2004, 8:53 pm
staring into space...
the time stood still
or so i presumed while the whole world ricochet like a blur.
Do i ever see beyond the vines that bind me?
Or am i just rooted while time passes me by?
The sand juz keeps trickling...
I am here but time wont listen
Wind will blow but the leaves wont fall, just like me
disturbed but stubborn to budge
its time to move on but i feel so lost
Wish i was still in my capsule ,enveloped by the borderless velvet space
free from the perpetual movements of Earth
BUT
I want to try to change
but time wont listen...
my o level results r coming out soon
how i feel?
the same as the rest of u all la
stupid qn to ask man
Hows JC life?
great!! power to the core
eye-opening(not juz from looking at gals)
lessons r so much more interesting or so it seemed
make a lot of new frens
met a lot of gals too haha
i should control myself but cant !!
anyway yah pjc is ok
the canteen food is edible at leat haha
n the teachers can be volatile or u can step on their heads ,depends lar
discipline wise ... hmm not like secondary skool ,they try to treat u like adults
Am i staying in JC?
i donno
let fate decide
my results will tell me everything
i am still in a blur
donno where to go at these cross-roads
help me...
thats all
Saturday, February 21, 2004, 3:18 pm
life is a road full of intersections
choices envelope us n let our
wisdom take to the test
we will never rest
our minds will forever be in a race
to make the right choices
but do we all do ?
we all end up going in circles if we dont
the right path is never hidden
its just there
we need to find it
o level results is coming out next week
so anxious
so worried sick
so ....
watever the emotions
we cant run away from it
we have to face it
after the results i would be burdened with decisions
difficult decisions to make
one that would mould my future
when thers decisions
there would be choices
when thers choices
there would be opportunity cost
life is never straight
there r so many intersections
n so many roads to take n choose from
i juz hope i make mine wisely
monday:
ahhh boring day
had opening ceremony rehearsals but my clique
cabut halfway
tuesday:
another boring day
yah got rehearsals but of course me n my clique never last throughout the
whole thing cabut again
wednesday:
oh yah stupid rehearsals to go to
there was rehearsals in the morning n duh we were forced to go
no lessons as a result
played games with my clique n class
haha so fun
then got afternoon rehearsals but b4 that we played basketball
then i josh n wai2 cabut the evening rehearsals
heard the teacher was pissed as my class had the worst attendance rate
thursday:
hmmm
just had a lot of fun
friday:
opening ceremony day
no lessons
morning played bball n table tennis
fizh lost his wallet then managed to get it back
watched the truman show while waiting for oc to start
so hillarious when candy thought it was a real show from the start
oc was alright
Saturday, February 14, 2004, 9:15 pm
my world is shrouded in this mist
i cant help feeling so down
when can i ever see the blue skies
its up to fate to decide
but only with effort
can i change my fortunes
the shrill of my soul of being almost eradicated
by the counter of evil
my defence is wearing thin
i can only hope...
but will i ever see the light of glory
or slump deeper into the velvet emptiness of space
only an angel can help
will i ever get to meet her i dont know
hope i do
vday sucks to the core this year
thats probably y i m so emo
tht girl r me
ya the stupid r word
i hate it
i feel like an idiot now
i made the wrong choice
choice
wat choice
oh ya should have given that gift to a worthier girl than her
ok enufff
i had enuff
today i had my annual cross country but its held at the canal behind my skool
how pathetic
it wasnt my day
i stopped a few times n missed out on being in the top 50
i got 50 plus for my position
after that i was supposed to have a rehearsal but i cabut with my frens
haha walk around lot1 after that with the usual gang of fizh, joshua,noorin
,si qian and shafizah
then after that went to the library in west mall with fizh n shafizah haha funny coz actually didnt planned to,
wanted to go home but last minute i got out of the
train with fizh
n surprised shafizah outside west mall
well that cheered me up a bit
i should have made a wiser choice
hmm i hate it but life goes on man
wat to do
like the song from eagles "Get Over It"
yah thats the spirit man
Saturday, February 07, 2004, 4:32 pm
this strange feeling is sinking in
whether i like i dont know
help me but in what way i dont know
i dont think u can solve my miseries
n the situation that i am in.....
1 more week has passed
n the year has wore on
2004 is up n running
n the clock will accelerate even faster
ok lets see wat happened last week
monday:
sick that day
slept the whole day
tuesday:
i cant remember wat happened
oh yah i went to Kelvin's house to play the xbox
played lotr ,magic the gathering , blinx ,star wars attack of the clones
yeah it was fun long time never see my best pal. yah wassup brudder!!!
wenesday:
went macritchie to run
quite boring really
thursday:
we signed out of skool to go sp
boring !!!!
went out with my frens to have some fun after that
Friday:
my college is either sadistic or juz plain stupid
played soccer at the basketball court then
got caught by a pe teacher then confiscate Hafieez's ball
stupid rules!!!!
then we all sign out again but never go for any open house
haha went out for some fun again
thats all
